“Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day, you shall begin it serenely with too high a spirit to be encumbered by your old nonsense.”—Emerson
for the days leading up to christmas, i’ve spent it with my friends back home. even on christmas day i’m spending it with one of my best friends. hell, we even did secret santa this year and had an ugly sweater party to be festive, but it’s christmas day and it doesn’t feel like christmas to me at all.
you know when you start replaying scenarios in your head, of what you could’ve said, or how it could’ve gone down and then you start drifting off to imagining new scenarios, the ones that haven’t been played out? you start imagining what the other person would say, and then how you’d respond, etc… ?
anyways, i stumbled across a thought that finally wrapped all my feelings into a concise sentence. it’s a bit melodramatic. but it i’ve realized it to be perfectly true —
" you know, you were the single most traumatic thing that has ever happened to me."
it’s kind of a terrible thing to say/ feel about someone.